Happenings of a Has Been Beauty Queen: Happenings of a Happy Has Been

Have I mentioned how glad I am not to have the pressure of preparing for a pageant this Summer? Well, I AM GLAD!!  Memphis Pizza Cafe was GOOOOOOD today at lunch! But, even though I don't have to worry about being tiny, tiny to fit into that Nazi Mrs. International fitness outfit, I do have to rediscover a little bit of discipline in order to make sure I am ready for the modeling jobs coming my way. I had one today, and I'll be honest...I felt a little puffy. So, I have to get semi serious. Not super serious mind you; just semi serious.

I've started running again, and it feels great. Running gives me such a fabulous mood lift. I ran my first 5K of the season yesterday, and I finished in under 30 minutes which was my goal.  That made me happy, and it motivated me to keep improving.  I always have to be competing at something. I thrive on it.  Without a goal; something to work for and improve upon, I feel a little lost. Strangely, my running isn't exactly maintaining my weight like it should be, but I know that will come...once I put down the Oreos.

My life is so different than it was a year and a half ago; different in a good way.  I have my own business, I'm a working model, I'm making a positive difference, and I'm not miserable in the practice of law. When I say I never saw any of this coming, I REALLY didn't see any of this coming. Dreamed about it? Maybe. Allowed myself to believe it could actually happen? Not so much. My year as Mrs. Tennessee taught me how to believe in dreams again, but mostly it reminded me how to believe in myself. I am very happy with my "has been" pageant queen status, but I am SO thankful it all happened like it did. I feel so lucky, and I feel like I've just scratched the surface of my potential.

Keep moving, keep improving...that is what this year is about for this "has been."